umma and appa, thank you for all you have done for me during my 21 years of precious life that has been given to me.
in this day and age, it really is easy to neglect the hardworking feats that our parents go through for us. being home recently really made me open my eyes to that fact of how my mother knows me better than i know myself. she reminds me of how she had carried me for 9 months and that i am naive in not knowing this simple truth- she knows my thoughts and how i feel. it’s a bit scary. but back to my point, give thanks to your mom and dad, because without them, you would be nothing. respect them and show them as much love as you can, because it gives them a sense of achievement in that they have been able to give you a wide array of opportunities in order to live the best and fullest life possible. a parent wants nothing but the best for their child.
to my own umma and appa, i know the past couple of years have been hard, with trials and tribulations that have put us in uncontrollable situations—from having to not worry about money at all, to being frugal in every way, from moving place to place, i know its hard. you wont let me work a single day during the school year so i can focus on my school work, in order to be the best in all that i do and be at the top of the competition. i know, and i am so sorry for not having enough heart to persevere and try 100% as you two. but i am reminded every day of your constant love no matter what i do.
so i shall end with this verse,
1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
so much fabrication in our lives.
it’s time to graduate and get out of this shithole called jmu, where people listen to the first thing they hear and believe every word of it. it’s time to grow up and leave this naive mentality behind.
so instead of studying, i had a good talk with my brother whom i never really talk to. catching up was really fun. i forgot how funny we both are when we talk to each other. he knows me better than i thought, but in some ways i did change over the years, and i question whether it has been a good change or not. the topics we talked about ranged from relationships to schoolwork and the future. but here are some interesting facts/tips that i completely agree with…
1. guys who have never dated ultimately and truly have the best intentions for you, even if they are shitty bfs. they just don’t know how to be one, so good luck dealing with that. the ones that HAVE dated, beware—they’re the manipulative ones
2. a guy should make you feel sexy in your own skin, no matter what.
3. you have to find out which liquor works best for your body, or else you’re f*ed
4. if you have an ADD attack, try and cover up or use someone as a scapegoat
5. ‘victory loves preparation’ so study hard
6. u need silver to kill a werewolf. (im buying a gun with silver bullets)
7. if you have cold feet, the best way to deal with that is to put them on your bf/gf or your laptop charger *hehe =]
8. never go to sleep angry!!
9. be easy going 8)
just to let out my frustration and whatnot.
i can’t believe it still makes me mad of how you slept with my “friend” behind my back and tried to act like everything was okay. you denying it twice to my face was like a slap of reality. it’s just really sad how you fucked yourself over by fucking someone you had no emotional attachment or liking to.
others may look at you and have no idea what kind of person you are, but you’ll always be the hypocrite whose old habits never die.
and next time let it be with someone who’s at least decent looking. my god.